Finding comfort in death

Prevailing Christian idea about existence one could say is about being comfortable with you earthly existence to the extend that you know that in moment of death you’ve lived your life well and that you did all the good deard you could have to improve life’s of others around you and by this making world a better place.

Is it not an illusion to think that one can live their life in a good manner and then just be in peace with death, it’s a scary notion to be thinking about death as we know so little about death and it is something that we can’t comprehend for what it is in out society that is driving so much about being the best you can be and fraying to express one self through material possessions that at the end of the day are just to establish pyramid of importance in our small universe that we’ve created about ourselves for ourselves and has not much meaning in most cases.

Old testament is focused on sacrifice and laws that govern human interactions on universe as a whole, one has to see that sacrifice is never meant to be in a form of a person per see. However this could have been a case in some ancient societies that lived by different notes as messaged given throat the ages show that many other religions have very similar messaged communicated to their followers. Sacrifice is what makes as efficient, one has to sacrifice time that could be spend with family or friends for time to study and progress with carrier and personal development. Pecan sacrifice this cookie for a time with weighs or time with his pet to gain healthier body and better mind and long life.

Nothings has a point

With our existence we tent to associate some meaning, we think that what we do is important, that how we are will effect things around as. Yet at the end of the day we are all going to die, not much of what we do actually matters as there will not be much left or remembered with in 100 years after death. So why we think we have such a impact and that we should act in certain way and that we should be certain human beings. Why so many people are not doing what they truly  would like to do, yet it is so easy for many just listen to their simple brain and just fix their temporary pain by: eating, smoking, drinking, going out or any other activity that would tempararly dump their internal pain and frustration with their existence.

As children we all have dreams I would assume, yet not many people fallow their dreams or act upon them with true dedication and responsibility for what they are doing. As in a long run, it all depend on how much selfreflection we apply to our actions and existence. Without that it’s like going with a current and expecting not to end up were it leads. It’s a human condition to be frustrated, to try dampening down all those voice in out heads that tell us that something is wrong that someone somewhere may not be happy with what we are doing. But at the end of the day it does not matter, nothing does, so doing what one is passionate about is most important.


I had a good day in the morning, even though I have overslept however I was looking forward to my day ahead. I had a feeling that my day will be fruitful even though that one person that I adore to bits is away on holiday so i did not have much to look forward.

My morning customer was rather difficult to find and that is why i was driving slowly in ain this single file road, when i noticed place that i meant to meet my customer on the right I slowed even further with attempt to get in to the car park and that is when someone decided to drive in to me. Apparently lady said that her foot slipped and just hit acceleration, which explain a lot force of the impact.

interesting thing, that i had already three people driving in to me, I really don’t know if there is anything to make out of it. But all of them were women. I had this one youngster that drove in to me in Ford Ka, she was probably barely 22 years old and started to cry when she came out of the car. I had to do some comforting of her as she was al l shaken and stuff. I did tell her that at the end of the day she was all healthy and nothing h

appen to my fan to even bother with it.

The very last one was just a women on traffic lights that drove in to me, again i had barely any speed and she just did not see me or something.